i've been dreaming about you

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 04:10:15 GMT

friends only.

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 18:33:57 GMT

college is weird.

good, but weird.

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 15:43:14 GMT

so i leave the day after tomorrow.

thank god.

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 04:40:31 GMT

hi, i give up.

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 04:45:31 GMT

hi, i'm home.

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 01:19:48 GMT

11 days left. that means i have 11 days to hang out with everyone i promised i would see before i left. 11 days to buy all new clothes. 11 days to reconcile with everyone. 11 days to get ready for the biggest change of my life.

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 03:57:57 GMT

you know what sucks? when things are going really well, and then all of a sudden something/someone comes along and fucks everything up.

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 05:37:49 GMT

i've had it. seriously. if i had known what i was getting myself into, i never would have done this.
i should have known it was going to end horribly. and it did. i can't take it anymore. i'm actually looking forward to going away because then i can be my own person and make my own fucking decisions. its my fucking life; i should be the one who decides what i want to do and who i want to do it with. other people have no business making those calls for me. i'm sorry if i don't share the same opinions as you do when it comes to certain things, but that's life. things dont always work out the way you want them to. sometimes you have to realize that all you can sit back and let people live their own lives. you have no business telling other people what they can and cannot do- or, rather, what you want them to do and what you don't want them to do. you can't control people and their decisions. let people live to make themselves happy, not to make you happy. end of story.

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 18:16:01 GMT

i fucking hate everyone at great foods.

i didn't fucking do anything.

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 17:43:16 GMT

i really have no idea what i'm doing anymore. i can't make up my mind about anything anymore, and i've stopped thinking about the consequences of my actions; i just act on my impulses, and it's terrible.

fuck.

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 05:10:31 GMT

so now i have 19 days until i leave, and i would like to take this opportunity to say that i have the worst timing ever. i would also like to announce that i do not want to go away to school-at all.

i feel like everything is so unfair. i finally get my life in order-my job, my friends, my family- and i have to leave. i'm happy for the first time in a very long time, and everything is ripped away from me. i'm not ready either. i'm not ready to move out of my house, i'm not ready to leave all of my friends behind, and i'm not ready to be completely autonomous. i know that nothing can stay the same forever, but i just want things to stay the way they are for a little bit longer. i want to spend one more day at school with all of my friends (and mrs kenison), i want to spend one more day at work (without being touched, of course), and i want to spend one more day going to a show and hanging out all night with my best friends. i'm going to miss everything and everyone so much. i know that theres nothing i can do about this; come august 26th i'm leaving regardless of whether i want to or not. i just hope that i can make the best of it and survive. what's worse is the fact that i know that when i come home for labor day weekend, i will be a different person-and so will all of my old friends who have also gone away to school. we're never going to be the same people ever again- and that thought is what scares me the most.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 05:49:15 GMT

MY LAPTOP HAS ARRIVED.

CONSIDER ME A MEMBER OF SOCIETY AGAIN; I CAN GO ON MYSPACE.

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 23:01:07 GMT

yesterday was a very enlightening day. i cleaned out my room to get ready for college, i started my online banking account, i made a facebook, i ordered my laptop,i cleaned out my car, and i played ddr. then i proceeded to use big words, get kicked out of parking lots by police, and have the most life changing phone conversation of my life. then today i dyed my hair and my parents hate it. tonight i'm babysitting and not going out. tomorrow i have to get a shot at the doctor's, so i'm excited. saturday is the mermaid in a manhole show, and i need to be there.

Sat, 20 May 2006 21:50:14 GMT

i need a life.

Thu, 04 May 2006 18:30:31 GMT

PROM IS TOMORROW.

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 22:59:28 GMT

i wish you would just make up your mind and decide what you really want.

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 00:56:18 GMT

so, to sum up this past weekend:

friends who pee together stay together.

it was a pretty good weekend.

now, i would like to take a minute to say something to a certain few people.

person 1: get over it. it's just a job. it's not the end of the world if someone fucks up every once in a while. come to think of it, get over yourself too. you're not as cool/hot as you think you are, and not everyone wants to have sex with you.

person 2: i never talk to you anymore. i don't know what's going on, but i miss the way things used to be.

person 3: no, i will not have sex with you.

person 4: go fuck yourself. no one wants you to suck their dick.

person 5: you're a hypocrite.

anyway, there's no school next week. so everyone, let's hang out.

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 01:05:15 GMT

the following is my tirade against members of the opposite sex.

i can't stand any of you. especially the ones who say one thing but mean another. i've said this a million times before, but i'll say it again. if you don't like me, that's fine. just don't make me hold your hand and ask me to go with you to the movies. that's called "leading people on", and it's a terrible thing to do. if you're going to talk about how you're "such a nice guy" and how you're "so lonely", then don't be a heartless asshole when other people are having problems and come to you for help. i don't care how much shit you've gone through in your life; you can't use that as an excuse to be a complete ass and then expect people to feel sorry for you.

i miss the person you used to be, the person who i could talk to about anything. you've changed in the past few weeks, and i don't know how to explain it. i just wish things could go back to the way they were before this whole thing started.

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 00:18:50 GMT

so today i went to work, where:

-i got food thrown at my face
-i crossed things out with markers for 3 hours
-i drank lots of soda
-i smoked lots of cigarettes
-i yelled at people
-i was called a lesbian
-i made plans for my birthday (eiffel tower/strip club)

then jesse and i ran errands. it was fun.

[things are so good right now. i ♥ my job, i ♥ my friends, i got into college, by the end of the week i won't be grounded; things are really good. i realized that i need to stop taking everything so seriously and to just go along with whatever happens.]

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 23:21:01 GMT

i posted this before, but i'll say it again.

you know what?

i'm tired of hypocrites. i'm tired of people telling me they hate one thing, and then turning around and doing that same thing the next day. if you hate doing something so much, then STOP. it isn't that difficult, ok?

ok.

i don't want to hear about it. if you want to fuck everything up, fine. go ahead. but i don't care anymore. go fuck yourself up, because i don't give a shit. i used to care, but if you're willing to throw everything away, so am i. obviously it didn't mean that much to you in the first place.

i'm so tired of trying to fix things. it's your turn now.

i feel like i don't even know you anymore. everything's changed, and i hate it. but i can't be the one who's always trying to make everything like it was before (you said that was what you wanted, right? or was that a lie too?), but now it's your turn. you have to decide if you care enough to try to save our friendship. if you just want to let it go, fine. tell me that so i'm not wasting my time trying to help someone i (used to) love.

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 22:16:28 GMT

i got fucked last night

-andrew

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 18:58:02 GMT

i am probably the coolest person ever.

and i don't even like to brag.

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 01:10:23 GMT

i really need to stop being infatuated with every boy i meet.

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 18:57:49 GMT

to quote tommy,

"we had been dead for a long time."

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 22:17:23 GMT

SO MY COUSIN'S GOING TO GET HERE IN 5 MINUTES AND I CANT WAIT I'M SO EXCITED WE'RE GOING TO WATCH MOVIES AND TALK ABOUT PEOPLE AND HACK INTO COMPUTERS AND ITS GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUN

by the way, have i mentioned that i have a huge crush on this boy? his name is __________, and even though he's 16 inches taller than i am, i still like him a lot.